projects, ideas, and reasons why
I could never be able to describe why I develop the ideas, as crazy as they may seem to others, nor would I ever try. I simply just try to accept them, and allow them to come to light as peacefully and organized as possible. As I get older, I am no longer able to deal with chaos as well as I used to be able to, so when I feel an idea growing, I simply try to yield and give way. When I was a child, I certainly was not dreaming of putting myself in uncomfortable situations, pushing my body to its absolute limit, or being away from friends and family for long times, however - these powerful thoughts and ideas have the strength to curve my entire way of life, in order to shape them into accomplishable tasks. I have always been an adventurous person, and though I dislike being amongst large crowds and have issues with anxiety at times, I have never shied away from anything - except of course when such times became life-threatening. Which in many times incredibly enough at only twenty six, has happened. I have seen numerous deaths first hand, and have been assaulted, held-up, and had my own life threatened more times than I can count on one hand. But hey, I'm not complaining. These things only scare people who are scared of living - and though I have many fears, life is certainly not one!
While my time seems to be passing quicker and quicker, I try to jump on every idea I get as quick as possible - in hopes it wont vanish like an early morning dream. Like I said before, I could never describe where these ideas come from, I do know however, they are my reason for continuing this life of mine. They are all gifts, and when people ask me 'Why?', I simply answer 'Why not?'. If I couldn't explore these ideas, these dreams, I would have no reason to exist. I enrich myself further by diving deep into these moments, and respecting what they may symbolize in the big picture. Perhaps nothing - but perhaps something monumental. And maybe if I didn't allow such dreams to reach the forefront of my mind and become a part of my life, I may be left in the dark. Like a student in class stuck without a pen and paper when the Professor is writing all the answers of the lesson on the board.
Therefore, my reason to make the films I make are simply to further explore these wonderful thoughts that pass through my mind and eventually become a part of my life. These ideas, these beautiful fleeting thoughts give me the strength and courage to do the things I do.
Posted on 07 Feb 2011
